Alpha King of Water

TAN TAN’S WORDS

HALI’S POV

Days without Zarya.

I spent the whole week at the Human World. Drinking. Looking for a woman to fuck, but when we were at room, kissing, touching- I backed away. No one could replace Zarya. Noone could satisfy me in this matter. I was like having no interest in any of them.

I kept pestering Froy and Tan Tan. I did not care if the Elemental Kingdom was summoning me because of my duties as a king. Fuck duty. Fuck kingdom. Fuck Zarya. They are all shit!

This was all freaking me out! I would never expect that Zarya was just playing around. All the shits I did was just a damn fool for her! I did not recognize it because she was a good actress, just like I had taught her.

Why would she love a person who abused her plenty of times? She had reasons! She had! What is more irritating? That was all acceptable!

I played with her from the beginning, even though I knew she was attractive in my eyes. I have never been gentle to her. Perhaps that was what she was thinking. I deserved her revenge, so I did not fight back. I did not battle for us. It was useless. She would just kick my balls away.

What is the purpose of pulling her closer to me when she is the one who is disgusted with me?

I am a bastard.

I am a piece of shit.

I am a monster.

I am a rapist. How pathetic I am for disadvantaging her when I can just court and say what I feel?

I have no brain.

I have no balls, too. Not a man she dreams of. Not a man she would marry. Not a man she would settle for the rest of her life.

Because I am damaged and she would just hurt if she picked the pieces of me. All I brought to the people around me was… pain.

What a life.

I sipped all the content of my glass while sitting on the counter island. Tan Tan was beside me, not talking, just gazing at me, accompanying me.Content protected by Nôv/el(D)rama.Org.

My eyes narrowed when I held the glass. It was blurred. I drank for seven consecutive days.

“Buddy, I don’t know what to say. Your life isn’t a game. I can’t teach you what to do.” Tan Tan suddenly talked. Until now he was streaming a game internationally. That was his job. “Is it something to do with Zarya?”

“I don’t wanna hear her name.” I sipped the liquor again. There would estimated twenty bottles in my front.

“What happened, Buddy? Last time, you two were so happy. You proposed to her, you were going to be married-”

“She doesn’t want to marry me. It was all a lie. She was just fooling me to have her revenge.” I leaned my elbows at the side of the table.

“Do you believe her?”

I froze. I set my gaze on him. “Of course. Why not? She says so-”

“Woah! I thought you were an expert in women.” He shook his head and tapped my shoulder. “Did you know that Serenity told me so many times that she didn’t love me when we were in a fight?” He chuckled shortly. “She told me she changed her mind… she won’t marry me, but at the end of the day, she didn’t mean what she said… Women are unpredictable, Buddy.” He paused for a moment and continued. “You’ll not know when they’re serious or just want to have a fight because they’re bored.”

Realization hit me. Possibly. I think deeply. I flashed the last time we talked to each other. However, that made me in pain again. “Zarya is different from Serenity.”

“They may… but how sure are you?”

I quaked my head as the dizziness was consuming me. “She has reason to hate me. You don’t know the shit I did to hear before.”

“Tell me what did you do?” He adjusted his body, going to the angle where he could face me clearly.

I took a deep breath and blew it out. I gasped at the glass again, but when I saw it had no content, I ordered another one again.

“Buddy, spell it out if you want me to help you-”

“I abused her.” I settled my stare at him. His mouth moved apart in shock. “Physically. Emotionally. Spiritually.” All those words were emphasized. “Now tell me, if she has the purpose to love me?”

“Oh, crap.” He washed his face using his palms. “What do you mean abuse?”

“In bed. In everything. I am a total monster. She spelled it out through my face.”

“Say your apology and pursue her again, then. Time can heal everybody.”

“Not all mistakes are forgettable and forgivable.” I gave back my attention to the liquor.

“Well…” Tan Tan shrugged his shoulders. “It’s better to try than to regret what you’ve not done when you are supposed to do something.” He grabbed my glass and drank it. “Don’t be a coward. Chase her or else…”

“Or else what?”

“She falls in love with another man. Once you give away the chance… it’s irreversible.” He tapped my shoulder for the second time. This was our way of comforting one another. “Mouth can lie, but eyes can’t. What did you see when she say the hateful words?”

I remembered our last conversation and damn it!

I should go back to the Elemental Kingdom! Her eyes at that moment were strong like a lion. I taught her those emotions, it was a self-defense for hiding the real expression. I should know that at first.

Possibly she just has a period? Or does she just wants to be alone? Or there is something more heavy reason than those?

It does not matter. I will take her back. This time… I will be sweeter.

“Pretty sure, there’s a secret behind those words. Find out.” Tan Tan grabbed my bottle. “What are you waiting for? Stand up and pursue her. You don’t want your dick to be lonely, do you?”

“Fuck you!” I raised my middle finger. I tapped his back and rushed and stood up. I ran away from him while gearing him.

“Hey! Pay for your drinks! I have no cash!”