Bellissima

Bella’s POV

Alex was shocked for a moment like my words are playing in his mind.

I heard thumped against my rib cage looking at his face. I can see that he didn’t like the news.

“Fuck!”

He breathed out the curse.

“Come here, i am so sorry…”

He pulled me in a tight hug.

It means he is not angry or upset, right? He hugged me because he is happy too. He wants this baby too.

I wrapped my hands tightly around him. Thank God, he understands.

“I am sorry… I couldn’t tell you earlier… I was scared… That night doctor told me that i am pregnant…”

I confessed but what he said next made shocked to the core.

“Don’t be scared Bella… We will abort it.”

Oh my God! My hands froze around him. Suddenly his embrace started feeling strange and weird. No this can’t be real, may be i heard it wrong. He can’t say that, not my Alex.This content © Nôv/elDr(a)m/a.Org.

I looked at him confused, broke the hug and stepped away from him.

“Abortion?”

I mumbled.

He sighed rubbing his forehead like It’s a problem.

“Yes, abortion… I’ll take today’s appointment… Don’t worry okay… Everything will be fine.”

He kissed my forehead but i didn’t feel the same warmth.

“Alex…”

He looked at me with worried face.

“I want this baby”

I declared and his eyebrows furrowed.

“You want this baby”

He repeated like I have said something stupid.

“Yes”

I nodded.

He closed his eyes frustrated.

“Bella do you even understand what are you saying…”

He looked at me madly.

“Why not Alex?… Why do you want to abort this baby?… It’s our child…”

My eyes watered and i fucking hate it. I have to stay strong right now.

“Because I don’t want a baby right now…”

He gritted.

“You are not ready… We. are. not. ready…”

“And you alone decided this…”

I don’t know how i am going to deal with this situation.

“Look at yourself Bella… You are too young to be become a mother… You can’t handle this baby…”

He reasoned.

“I have 9 siblings younger than me, Alex… And I definitely have the experience of taking care of the baby.”

I argued.

“That’s the different thing… This baby is not your sibling…”

He said frustrated.

“Here i am planning so many things for you. Your studies, your career…. I want to see the whole fucking world with you and here you want to get stuck with the child… Do you understand how big responsibility it is?…”

“We can do all this with our baby… We don’t need to kill it…”

I pleaded.

“Alex it’s our baby…”

He has heart… I know he does… He can’t be this cruel.

“It’s been just few weeks… It’s just a bundle of cells… We are killing it.”

He said coldly and something in my heart snapped.

“Alex?!”

I mumbled in disbelief.

“Bella… It’s not the right time… You can get pregnant again… We have whole life…”

He tried to convince me.

I pushed his hands away from my shoulders.

“I don’t know about future Alex…”

“Bella…”

“But i want this baby… I am not going to abort it…”

I said and turned around to leave.

“Bella…”

He grabbed my arm making me halt in my place.

“Don’t be stupid… It was a mistake… We didn’t plan it… You are too young for this fucking child…”

He said madly.

I pushed his hand away.

“It wasn’t mistake for me… As long as i know we were in love…”

My watery eyes looked at him offended.

“May be it’s mistake for you… Not me…”

“We are about to get married Bella… You have whole life for this…”

He stated.

“You have to accept both of us Alex… Both or none… Choice is yours…”

I stated back.

“You are going to leave me for this unborn baby?”

He frowned.

“Why do you have to make it difficult?”

“I am making it difficult?”

He can’t be serious.

“You are making it difficult Alex… Why can’t you accept your own baby?”

“You think i will love this unwanted baby… The child i don’t want… The child who will ruin your health… I am sorry, I can’t…”

God! What’s wrong with him.

“It’s unwanted for you… Not me”

I left the room ignoring his Calling.

Tears couldn’t stop flowing. Fuck! I never wanted it like this. We were so happy about our marriage.

I Ignored Dominick and Grace who were in the corridor and kept walking while wiping my angry tears.

“Bella what happened?”

I heard Grace’s soft voice but i couldn’t stop.

“Bella, wait…”

She grabbed my hand and stopped me.

“Where are you going like this… You were not well… What happened?”

She asked with worried face.

“Bella, come back… We need to talk”

Alex came running behind me.

“I don’t want to talk… You can’t just force your decisions on me every time… I know what i am doing and you can’t make me think otherwise…”

I spat.

He kidnapped me, i stayed…

He gave me deadline to fall for him, i fell for him…

He decided about my education, i complied…

He said don’t go there, i didn’t…

I listened to his every single thing but not this time.

“Leave them alone… Talk to her later…”

Dominick stopped him from reaching me and dragged him away from us.

I burst out crying when he was out of my side.

I fell on my knees. Suddenly it became difficult to breath. Grace’s gentle hands try to hold me but failed.

Blackness gathered in front of my eyes, i heard her calling Maa.

I tried to clear my vision with blinking but couldn’t. My body is numb.

I could hear few footsteps around me, familiar voices were helping the panic.

Finally large strong hands lifted my numb body.

It’s not Alex, I recognize his scent. It’s not him.

“Massimo be careful… She is pregnant…”

last words i heard i heard before falling into dark slumber.