I’m Just His Wife

My forehead wrinkled. “What’s that again?” I will ask.

He pointed with his snout so I turned around.

“MOMMY!”

Flashback

Roxanne and I were now in LA. By the mercy of god we got here nh safely. Here we were now staying at Ate”s mansion. I can’t imagine that she can own this kind of house. I keep thinking about how rich he was.

To this day I still think of my son. I hope he forgives me for leaving me with him. Because I was so cowardly, because I escaped the problem I left him alone there.

And Seymour? He said that he would follow us the other day and that their company would be transferred to him here in America.

I am currently thinking now of what I can do. Ate told me never to do anything. Roxanne and I went somewhere so I was left here alone with so many maids and bodyguards around.

I stood up and noticed that the sofa did not fit. I picked up a single sofa and decided to move it when they arrived Ate.

“Oh my God! Rigella Andrea, what were you doing ?!” Ate said so I immediately let go of the single sofa I made.

“I’m just fixing it, Ate …” I’ll excuse myself. The problem for me was that I’m not used to doing nothing.

“What you’re doing can be with you! were you okay? Don’t you feel anything else?” Ate touched both my shoulders and examined me from head to toe.

My forehead furrowed. “I’m fine, Ate. Then, what’s wrong? I’ll just move your sofa …” I said in surprise.

Her face was immediately covered with astonishment and she stared at me for a moment before turning to Roxanne who was now bent over.

“Haven’t you told her yet?” Ate asked her.

Roxanne took a deep breath. “Not yet. I want you to tell her yourself since you’re the one who planned that …” Roxanne stared and averted her eyes.

“What were you saying? I don’t understand you …” I said confused.

Sister Rina looked at Roxanne again before sighing.

“I’ll leave you first …” Roxanne said and my sister left us here in the living room.

I looked at Ate and there was sadness on her mats.

“You’re still pregnant, Rigella. Your baby was safe and you never had a miscarriage. I ordered the doctor to take care of you to say that your child died …” she said almost in a whisper.

I think the floor fell because of what I heard. My forehead furrowed. I never had a miscarriage?

I looked up and at the same time my tears flowed. Tears again? When will the day come when I won’t cry anymore?

“were you kidding me, sister? Pwes, if yes, please! Don’t expect me oh!” I said crying.

Ate held my arm and even she was crying. “I’m … I’m sorry, Andrea! I didn’t really want that to happen. I didn’t mean to lie to you. I just did that because I know that it may trigger you to hate your husband! I want to stay away you want him so you don’t get hurt so I did that … please, believe your sister … ”

I removed his hand from my arm. “Ate! I almost died then because Mom and Dad died, then my son also died! But no, that’s not true because he’s still in my stomach! He’s still alive!” I sobbed and touched my stomach. He was alive. My baby was alive.

“I’m … I’m sorry …”

“I’m sorry you can’t bring back what happened, Ate!” I sob promise.

“Look, you can’t blame me, you’re my brother! I don’t want to hurt you so I did that. Please, understand me. I don’t want to lose another member of our family. Please … understand sister … understand I … “She cried in a pleading voice.

I could no longer control myself and my palm landed on his cheek.

“It hurts, sister! I thought, I’ve lost a child but all the while he’s still alive in my stomach? Everything was wasted

tears and pain I suffered! ”

“I’m sorry …”

I was caught on both my knees and bowed. My baby was alive!

And in an unexpected event, I ran closer to my sister and …

I hugged him.Property of Nô)(velDr(a)ma.Org.

‘thank you, sis… thank you …” I whispered at her ear.

End of Flashback Andrea’s POV

Death was not the greatest loss in our life. The greatest loss was what dies inside us while we live.

Let’s face it. Feeling sad sucks. Whether it’s a death in a family or not, or the relationship that ends in a bitter and painful break up, heart break was inevitable. And life can be pretty fair. Sometimes, depression was just a funk you go through that can’t quite be explained. Death may be the greatest of all human blessings. The life of the dead was placed at the memory of the living. I don’t have fear of death. Nothing was more than sad than the death of an illusion. If we lose love and self respect for each other, this was how we finally die.

Nobody can be back after death. Yes. We were blessed with many things in our life. But our life was very beautiful, we were blessed with good friends, good people, good family members, and all the greatest things in life.

It was free to express your feelings when someone you love or important to you died. So don’t be scared to mourn and cry. Because crying was a way your eyes can speak when your mouth can’t explain how broken your heart was …

Flashback

“You should know how to use guns.” Ate Rina said that made my eyes widened in surprise.

She brought me here in a shooting range, who happened to be her property, because she wants to practice gun firing. He said I would go with soy so that I would know what I should know … that I didn’t understand before but now I understand.

I just gave birth, about two months ago and I just got out of the house. I’m CS so they don’t let me out. Their only OA really was.

During my one year stay here in America, I experienced a pity I had not experienced when I was still in the Philippines. I was smiling, funny, and I never cried again because of pain and sadness. I can only shed tears of joy. It was like when I gave birth to my son.