Chapter 37: Why Did She Had To Know Those Matters?
Chapter 37: Why Did She Had To Know Those Matters?
A long while after Karina had left, Rae was still at the bar and did not leave. They had already sat back
to the seats with the nicest views, and were drinking while they chat. The wine bottles were filled and
collected, one round followed by another. It was getting late, although there had often been rascals
coming to mess around, but there were still some that did not mind the trouble and would come to have
fun while they wanted. Jensen saw that she was drinking so much and reached out to stop her once
again, but Rae swatted his arm impatiently and said to the waiter behind her, “One more dozen, love
you!” After saying this, she threw a flirtatious look at the waiter.
“Alright.” The waiter endured the icy look beside her, and after answering he left hurriedly.
Jensen was displeased, but he dared not say something.
“What are you afraid of, I am not pregnant. It doesn’t matter if I indulge myself for one night…” Rae
slurred dizzily, her tone was obviously unhappy. Some say that the ones that knew you the best was
most often not your friends, but instead your enemies, and Rae felt that this phrase was extremely
accurate until now.
There was a time when Ophelia heard how badly she wanted a child, she was gloating over
her disappointment. Further, Ophelia knew that she had a boyfriend, but she did not know who was the
man. So she would often chide her and talk non-stop about how troublesome her three children at
home were. She described her as ‘this sort of incapable opponent’, and she even mocked that she
should give up earlier and not waste her time that should be spent on playing with her children at
home. Her frequent mentions about children really irritated Rae.
There was also once when Ophelia had used an actress who frequently had children as a topic and her
title was blatantly targeting someone else. The rough meaning was that once some people wanted it
they would get it, but why would others pray so hard but did not get it. When Rae read it back then, she
had been silently furious for the entire afternoon in the office, she was almost bursting with anger.
Now that Ophelia was frequently investigated by the authorities, Rae had felt that she was too kind, not
taking the opportunity to finish her off. Yet in fact, she knew that Ophelia did not have it so easy. Her
husband was a gambler who had owe a ton of money and ran away, and Ophelia had to bear those
debts, she even had three school-aged children… Rae really did not dare to get Ophelia fired, so she
could only endure it while she was angry.
So, she did not know whether she should be angry at herself for being too kind, or be angry at Ophelia
for always retorting her! But the more to it was that she was sad about why was it really as what
Ophelia had said, that even if she prayed hard, she could not get it?! Was she not obviously healthy?
Her family was in shambles, so she wanted badly to form a complete family by her own and try her
hardest to fulfil it, wanting to make every member in the family extremely happy.
Why was this tiny wish so hard to come true?
Rae took the wine that had just been sent, and gulped down another glass in one shot.
Jensen heard her mumbles and finally knew the reason behind her abnormality tonight. He had thought
that it was about the problem with Karina’s birthday clashing with hers which was why she had been so
unhappy, but actually it was for the matter of children again. Jensen knew as well that due to her family,
she wanted badly to have a complete family. To her, what would make it complete would be to have a
child in the first place, and it did not matter to her whether she had a husband or not.
Reuben heard this and gave Jensen a look, indicating for him to step aside to talk.
Jensen understood his look and reached over to caress Rae on the head. Then he got up and walked
to the other corner of the bar with Reuben. Seeing that there was a bin, Jensen fished out a cigarette
and lit it up.
“Haven’t Rae known???” Reuben felt that this was no way to go, as they have already reached the
suitable age to get married, this matter could not be covered up for long. Further, he always felt that it
was better for her to know earlier. Or else, when she found out about the truth after she was tortured for
long, she might be harder to console.
“Why does she have to know?” Jensen stuck the cigarette between his lips and asked in reply, his
voice mumbled.
“It’s really not a good way, what do you plan to do after a few years? Further, Jensen, you have hidden
too many things from Rae. I feel that it’s not a good solution, I mean it!” Reuben said seriously, “For
example. Back then, Heath had been the one who had cheated on his marriage, yet you had asked
Lola to take the blame in order to maintain a perfect father in Rae’s heart. If it were me, I can’t behave
nicely towards Rae as well.”
Reuben always felt that things should not be hidden, instead, expose it naturally was the way to go.
Moreover, Rae was not a fragile women. She just need time.
The point was that she needed to know the truth first.
“You don’t understand, Reuben. Rae admired her father so much and that’s why she was willing to take
the blame for all the wrongs that her father has done just to protect her father from being humiliated? If
you tell her now that her father wasn’t as perfect as she imagined,, and even that she isn’t her father’s
biological daughter… do you think she could get through this?” Jensen puffed a couple of times,
remembering that Rae disliked the smell of cigarettes on his body, so he took it out and extinguished it.
“Then, then do you plan to hide it for the whole life?” Reuben understood the reason of what Jensen
had said, but he still felt that this was wrong.
“I haven’t think about a whole life. I just want to hide it as long as I can.” Saying this, Jensen looked
towards Rae’s direction. His eyes shone with a light that was focused and gentle, “I’ll tell her when she
has become stronger.”
“Isn’t Rae strong enough???” Reuben was full of doubt towards Jensen’s words!
Jensen smiled.
Strong?
As what he saw, she was weak.
Ophelia, for instance, she had troubled her, ridding roughshod over her for long. Yet she was just angry
on the outside, she would consider Ophelia’s family situation and would merely defend herself but not
attack. It was him that could no longer stand by watching, so he found someone to distract Ophelia,
making her incapable to target Rae again. When a person had hurt her yet she still felt pity towards
them, in Jensen’s eyes this was the kindest character but meanwhile the most vulnerable weakness. A
person of this kind was especially easy to get hurt.
“Mr Knight, whenever you smiled, I'm so scared.” As Reuben saw that Jensen smiled without a word,
he rubbed his arms to keep warm, but feeling much colder though.
“Go find a true love bro, and you’ll find that women are actually complicated.” Jensen raised his hand
and patted Reuben on the shoulder, and went back to his seat. For the special character that was only
showed to him, she was worth being valued and cherished.
Reuben felt even colder.
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The second day happened to be a weekend. Once Jensen woke up, he saw the person beside him
was lying by her stomach on the bed. Her hands propped up her head, and she was looking at him,
smiling.
“Had I vomited last night?” Rae’s legs were swinging back and forth in the air, being in a good mood for
no reason. It was merely because at that moment that she woke up just now, she saw that she was
lying on the bed, clean and tidy, and her phone was charging on the desk. These caring details made
her feel warm inside. When she had not been together with Jensen, she had been dead drunk before,
and the result was that she slept simply on the floor with her dirty clothes on and did not even remove
her shoes. The second day, she had even delayed a lot of important matters as she forgotten to charge
her phone.
But now, there was a man that helped her to settle all of these, and she felt happy out of no reason
indeed.
“No.” Jensen turned his back on her.
He always felt that when she smiled like this, he would feel more afraid inside. He did not know what
bad ideas she was having again.
He had planned to close his eyes and sleep for a while more, but the person behind him was moving
around devilishly. He warned, “Don’t move.”
He had not been able to finish his sentence when a warm body touched him, and a person came to sit
on top of him, giving all her weight onto him.
“Jensen…” Rae blew some air by his ears on purpose.
Indeed, after two seconds his ear got pink.
Rae stared at it for a while. Seeing that the color was lessening, she blew some air once more at the
right time, and that ear turned pink again.
She kept repeating this action as if she really enjoyed this.
After four to five blows, Jensen could no longer hold himself back and reached over to pull her from
being on top of him into his arms. He then pressed on using most of his torso, and pulled the blanket
over, covering her tightly. “Stop it.”
“Jensen, you’re going to the church later, right?” Rae raised her head looking at him, while she asked,
“Bring me along.”
“…” Jensen’s calm expression changed slightly due to her words, as if it was something horrible. After
two seconds of silence, he refused, “No.”
The people at the church would still make fun of him due to that incident from before.
Especially for the newcomers, whenever they heard they would always looked at him directly. It made
him extremely embarrassed.
“I promise I will watch my mouth this time, and I’m very respectful towards the God as well, please.”
Rae knew that Jensen still minded about that incident from before, and was getting displeased. “You
can’t just blame me for that thing before, didn’t the pastor say that we could ask if we have any
questions? I just asked what I wanted to ask. Please, you seldom get a day off, and once you go now
half the day would be gone. I want to stay together with you.”
I want to stay together with you.
Her words made Jensen instantly hesitate.
She was rarely so clingy towards him, so it was very hard for him to refuse once more.
“Then it’s settled? I’ll get up first and wait for you!” Rae saw that he did not refuse, so it meant that he
had agreed. She rolled off the bed from his arms happily, and pattered into the washroom to wash up.
Jensen saw that he was persuaded by her so easily, and he raised his arms, rubbing his forehead. He
only hoped that this time there would not be any more issues again.
Before that at church, the pastor might have seen that there were a lot of newcomers. So he started to
ask casually before they got started, saying that if there was any questions about the church they could
feel free to ask. At that moment, Rae was the first to stand up. Jensen was surprised that she was
curious and active and was just about to praise her, but he heard her asking, “Pastor, pastor. I want to
ask, if someone break the rule and has premarital sex, would God punishes him?”
Once she said this, he was instantly receiving looks from everywhere, since everyone knew that she
had come with him.