Chapter 448: Fulfilling Regrets
I fell on the ground, staring blankly at Yao Mubai’s tombstone, tears slowly drying on my face, the cold wind blowing on my face, I was thinking, why did Yao Mubai not let me know about his death, why did he want everyone to hide it from me.
Wang Yuan Liu Xin, Cai Caiqin, even Gu Chengzhong concealed, Walker Richter has known for a long time, but also concealed, attempting to let Bai Mu pretend to be Yao Mubai to round out this big lie.
I stayed in the cemetery for a long time, the sky gradually darkened, Walker Richter helped me up, “Alva, we’ll go back first, Yao Mubai, he doesn’t want to see you like this.”NôvelD(ram)a.ôrg owns this content.
“He put his life on the line for me several times, but all I can do is just to look at his grave for a few more moments, Walker Richter, do you think that if I had successfully married Yao Murong that day, would it mean that he wouldn’t have died?”
In fact, this hypothesis of mine does not exist at all, the person has already been lying in the ground I stepped on, there is no more Yao Mubai in this world.
Yao Mubai and Yao Murong between the grudges, is ultimately to have an end, but why must pay the price of life.
After learning of Yao Mubai’s death, I did not go out at home for half a month, immersed in grief, Gu Yao called me and asked me if I wanted to go to the school to listen to the class, today is the last class on Bai Mu, after this class, it seems that the people will go back to Germany.
I heard, immediately agreed, let Gu Yao in front of the school waiting for me.
Maybe even just look similar to Yao Mubai, but I still want to take a last look, even if it is to fulfill my regret of not sending Yao Mubai on his last journey.
I took a taxi to the school, Gu Yao was waiting for me at the door, brought two cups of milk tea from Chu Tian store, handed me a cup: “This is a new product from Chu Tian store, try it and give your opinion.”
I was not in the mood to drink milk tea: “What time is class? Is Bai Mu really leaving after the last class today?”
“The class is at 3:10, there are still twenty minutes before it starts.” Gu Yao teased me, “Sister Alva, do you really like Mr. Bai, or do you think he’s Yao Mu Bai.”
I knew very well that that person wasn’t Yao Mubai, and I also knew very well that I wasn’t falling for Bai Mu, I was just pretending him as Yao Mubai.
I didn’t say anything to Gu Yao about this complicated feeling, pulling her along and saying, “Let’s go to the classroom first.”
“Okay okay.” Gu Yao led me to the classroom, the location of the class was different every time, so Gu Yao could only know.
I followed Gu Yao to the classroom first, just as the bell rang, students came out from inside the classroom one after another, the next class this classroom would be Bai Mu’s class.
After the students finished leaving, I pulled Gu Yao and hurriedly found a seat, waiting for the bell to ring.
The wait was always long, I kept looking at the time, there were still five minutes to go.
Gu Yao propped her head up and looked at me; “Sister Alva, I’m curious about the story between you and Yao Mu Bai, can you tell me about it.”
When Gu Yao said that, the images of Yao Mubai and I since we met flashed in my mind like a movie, from the first meeting to the end, I always remembered that year in the detention center, he stood outside the iron gate and asked me why I was following Walker Richter.
Many times after that, Yao Mubai called me stupid.
In his eyes, I am a person with low emotional intelligence and low IQ.
In front of him, I can be reckless and say whatever I want to say, no matter if it’s an angry scolding or a loud laugh, it’s all sound.
To talk about my story with him, it is really too long, too long.
I suddenly didn’t know where to start.
I opened my mouth, only to realize that it was like there was something stuck in my throat, and I couldn’t utter a single word.
Seeing me like this, Gu Yao also said, “I’m just casually asking, you don’t have to say anything if you don’t want to.”
I pulled the corner of my mouth, a thousand words, only converged into one sentence: “He should not have met me, perhaps, did not meet, there is no robbery.”
But many things are predestined again.
Gu Yao did not understand the meaning of my words, looking at her blank eyes, I did not explain again.
The bell rang and some students came in, just as I was expecting Bai Mu to come to class, I heard a student say, “Mr. Bai isn’t coming today, Professor Wang is giving us a lesson, and Mr. Bai seems to be in a hurry to go to the airport.”
Upon hearing that Bai Mu was not coming, I immediately asked, “Where is Mr. Bai now?”
“I just saw heading towards the school entrance.”
As soon as I heard this, I immediately ran out, at that time I was harboring the mood to see Yao Mubai’s last face, ran to the school entrance, fortunately in time.
I ran to the school entrance and saw Bai Mu just about to get into a cab.
I shouted, “Wait.”
Bai Mu looked over at the sound.
I panted and ran over, looking at him as if Yao Mu Bai was standing in front of me, I said, “Can you let me trample for you.”
Bai Mu froze for a moment and nodded yes.
“Thanks.” I really appreciated it.
I went to a Chinese restaurant with Bai Mu, it was now three in the afternoon, there were no more customers inside the store, it was empty, we casually found a seat and sat down, casually ordered two dishes.
I asked him, “Can I call you Yao Mu Bai, just one last time.”
“Okay.” He also agreed very quickly, “No matter what story you have with the one called Yao Mubai, I’m happy to be Yao Mubai for a second time, it’s also considered to be an adult.”
“Thanks.” I said, “You should also know that he’s not in this world anymore, before I met you, I didn’t know about his death, I regret that I didn’t send him on his last journey.”
“What was your relationship? Friends, lovers?”
“Friendship upwards, lovers yet.”
This is my relationship with Yao Mubai, deeper than friends, but so far short of fate.
Maybe if I hadn’t met Walker Richter in this life, Yao Mubai would have been my destiny.
Bai Mu nodded: “Then I understand, you want to drink something, or you tell me what character he is, the tone of voice and so on, so that I am more like him.”
“He … is silly.”
I thought about it, only the word stupid can describe Yao Mubai.
If he’s not stupid, who is?
In fact, I don’t need Bai Mu to do or say anything, as long as he sits in front of me and I look at his face, it’s enough.
Bai Mu was in a hurry to go to the airport, we only got together for half an hour, and all we talked about was Yao Mu Bai.
Later, I sent Bai Mu to the airport, watched him go through the security check, Bai Mu left me contact information, I did not want it, I said: “I watched you go, it’s like seeing him off, he lied to me, said he went to a foreign country to travel, and now it’s just a lie that has turned into a self-defeating fact.”
The one who went abroad was not Yao Mubai, but Bai Mu.
Bai Mu understood what I meant and smiled, turning around and leaving behind a back.
I eyed him as if I was watching Yao Mubai gradually walk away.
When that silhouette disappeared, I received a call from Wang Yuan, she said on the phone, “Alva, Boss has gone to South Africa again, I just contacted him, he is doing well over there, but he shouldn’t be coming back for a while.”
I didn’t break down Wang Yuan’s lie and said with a smile, “Good, as long as he’s doing well.”