Chapter 26: Avoiding
Alice’s Point of View
“What do you mean that he is avoiding you?” Helena asked with fewer lines written on her forehead.
“Avoiding. That’s it. He is ignoring me and acting like I didn’t exist,” I answered as I scrubbed myself while I took my warm bath.
“So, you mean… are you telling me that after the wedding he ignored you? There is no honeymoon happened?” I grimaced when I heard the word ‘honeymoon’.
As if I am expecting that there would be a honeymoon after our so-called wedding. “I already told you, there was no honeymoon happened because it wasn’t needed at all. And the heck, Helena. It’s not the honeymoon that I am concerned about. It was his treatment of me, he f*cking treat me like air.” I cursed.
Helena just laughed from the other line and it took her moments before she has stopped. “Didn’t you also tell me that you didn’t care if Logan will going to treat you like his wife as long as he will provide for Aisle?”
“Yeah.”
“Then why are you demanding his attention?” That threw me off guard, making me stop moving. I gulped the lumps that instantly build up on my throat. “You better think of that, Alice… you better think. Because if I were you, I will going to ask myself if my feelings are still normal for a so-called you that is unbothered.” Helena dropped the call and I was there, in the bathroom for almost an hour. Staring at nowhere as my mind is drowning in clouded emotions.
When the night came deep, I wasn’t able to sleep. I was all there, with my eyes wide open as I stared at the ceiling. Only the monotonous chirped of crickets are all I could hear. But despite the noises coming from them, the night was still peaceful. As the bright moon conquers the night… the dark, I am also wishing that perhaps, the moon can lighten up my thoughts as well. Everything was gloomy, vague. Yes, I said that I don’t care if Logan will treat me nice, or will at least give me his eyes. I don’t care if he would ever see me as a woman who has an eye on him, but if I am going to take Helena’s words, am I really unbothered? Do I really don’t care or it’s just me, denying the truth that I secretly demand for his attention?
That night, when he came home late. I thought it would be the start, I thought it would be the first step in bringing up the undefined relationship between us to the next level. But all my hopes flew like a bird, like a bubble that burst out when the days passed and he eventually ignored me. I first ignored him but after that kiss, I removed my barrier all for him. But just when I am starting to let my guard down, he ignored me. Not just once, twice nor thrice… he ignored me many times. And whether I admit it or not, it f*cking hurts.
Even though I didn’t get enough sleep that night, I was still able to get up from my bed for a morning routine. I just took a bath and wear simple house clothes since it is Sunday today so there is no work. After tying up my hair into a messy bun, I stepped outside my room and walked into Aisle. When I saw her still sleeping peacefully, I didn’t bother to wake her up since it was still six in the morning. When I got downstairs, there were already two maids cleaning the house while the head of the maid, Lucia is now busy in the kitchen.
I simply coughed, getting her attention and when I did, Lucia smiled at me before greeting me with a good morning. I walked over to the sink and washes my hand before I get some ingredients in the refrigerator.
Lucia eyeing me, I speak. “I wanna help, Auntie Lucia.” And then I started peeling off some onions and garlic and then chopped them.
Lucia didn’t protest for what I wanted, and when I told her that she can already do some of her work and leave the cooking on me, she agreed. I was smiling widely as I sang while frying bacon, hotdogs, and egg. And when I already finished cooking and preparing the table, I sighed in delight. Unlacing my apron, I washed my hands again and headed back upstairs to wake Aisle as well as Logan. But when I was about to enter Aisle’s room, the door flew open. Giving me my daughter in her father’s arm.
“Good morning, Mommy!” Aisle greeted me as she saw me. I greet her back and when my eyes landed on Logan, greeting him too was my intention. But when he avoided my eyes, I got to bite my tongue just so I can stop my mouth from opening. Logan walked first downstairs with Aisle he effortlessly carrying on his strong arms. While me, I just have to follow them with pursed lips. Hands gripping on the hem of my blouse.
“Did you cook all of this, Mommy?” Aisle asked while her eyes are glistening in joy upon seeing those foods in front of her.
Putting bacon, hotdogs, and rice on her plate, I answered. “Yes, baby… I prepared these all for you.”
“What about Daddy? Didn’t you cook these for Daddy as well?”
I awkwardly lifted my eyes on Logan who’s now sipping on his cup of coffee, not giving me any glance. I was forced to let out a smile and then turned again to Aisle. “Of course, I prepared these foods for Daddy as well.” Aisle giggled.
The whole breakfast went out just like that. Me, feeding Aisle, answering all her questions and chit-chats. But on the other hand, Logan was just like a dumb. He didn’t even speak even though Aisle is talking to him. He will just smile and then that’s all. His actions somehow frustrate me. Not because he is obviously ignoring me but because he is acting rude to his child. Aisle wasn’t used to that side of him and I have to lie about that when I was bathing Aisle.This belongs © NôvelDra/ma.Org.
“Mommy, is Daddy mad at me?” she innocently asked while playing with those bubbles that are covering her body.
“Of course not… what made you think like that, baby?” I bit my lips inside, silently cursing Logan inside my mind.
“Because he seems like not happy when I am talking to him. He is not like that before and it saddened Aisle.” Seeing the sad face she is wearing, I unknowingly tightened my grip on the scrubs.
I heave a deep sigh. “Baby, Daddy wasn’t mad at you… don’t think like that. See, he even goes to your room to wake you up. Do you think if he is mad at you, he will do that?”
Damn you, Logan! Damn, him!
He told me that he wanted a perfect family for our child yet he is acting like an asshole now.
The not-so-pleasant lunch came and pass and just like what happened earlier in the breakfast, Logan is still dumb. He didn’t dare to talk to me either Aisle which made our child feel sad as she thought that her father is mad at her. One o’clock in the afternoon when I stayed in Aisle’s room as she is sleeping. Later on, I decided to come back to my room and take a quick shower. While under the pouring cold water, I made myself feel calm while thinking of what should be done so that I can lessen what Aisle feels. And then it bring me to one idea that I decided to do right after I took a bath. After drying my hair with a blower, I stepped outside and walked through the hallway, and then stopped in the front of Logan’s office. At first, I was hesitant to knock but later on, eating my pride, I knock twice.
“What do you need?” he instantly asked after giving me a short glance.
“Uhm…” I trailed. “Can… can we talk for a while?” in a silent voice.
“I still have work to do, we will talk later,” he said, sounding like he is dismissing me.
Gritting my teeth, I twirled around and face the door again. I slammed the door next and walked heavily downstairs.
What is he? A woman in period? My gosh! He is worse than me when I am on my period. I can’t take him anymore… he is already getting into my nerve.
When I reach the first floor, I then walked to where alcohol is located. Reaching a bottle of tequila, I poured enough amount on my glass and then drank it directly. I bit my lips and then headed back upstairs. I didn’t waste a second and went back to Logan’s office. He can’t just dismiss me like this when he promised to me that he will take care of Aisle. That he will provide a perfect family for our child.
“Alice, I already told… I still have works to do.”
I stared at him blankly before twitching a lip. That made him frown but then instantly hid that reaction. I strode towards his office table and then slammed my hand on it which made Logan jerk on his seat.
“What the f*ck is your problem, woman?” he asked in a hard voice. “Didn’t you hear me? I said, I still have works to do, and whatever you wanted us to talk about, save it later–”
“Save your bullsh*t, you mean?!” I raised a voice. “Why are you doing this? Come on, tell me Logan, why the f*ck you are doing this?!” I frustratedly asked.
“Doing what?!” He stood up, putting both hands on his torso. “You know what, just leave.”
“Why would I when you still didn’t give me the answer? Damn it, Logan! You told me… you f*cking promised me that you will provide a perfect family fir Aisle yet how dare you to broke my daughter’s heart?” His eyes widened, unable to move in his place. I chuckled. “Oh, you are shocked? Damn you! F*ck you, Logan! I should have mot trusted you when it comes to my child… I should have not to trust you!” I shouted hysterically.
“What do you mean?” is all he could ask.
I laughed humorlessly. “You told me to leave, right? You want me to leave? You want me gone that is why you are ignoring me like I didn’t even exist in this house? Fine, I’ll give you a favor. Since you are obviously and intentionally ignoring me and even Aisle, I will leave. We will leave!” I stormed out of his office and went hurriedly back to my room.
As soon as I slammed the door closed, I drastically go to my closet and tugged out the luggage. I then started to put on my clothes, not minding if they were still on a hanger. When I almost emptied my cabinets, I zip the luggage and was about to step outside when the door swung open.
Logan- with his hands on his pocket- shoot me with his dagger looks but instead of getting intimidated like what I usually feel, I stared at him with equal ferocity. I continued to walk and pass through him but just when I totally did, he gripped tight on my luggage to stop me.
“Where do you think you are going? You can’t leave like what you wanted, Alice,” he told sounds like threatening me.
I turned around and looked him up before my right hand flew on his cheek. “You can’t control me, Logan… you can’t. Didn’t you tell me to leave? Well, then I am doing what you ask for–”
“F*ck it, Alice! It’s not what I mean for God’s sake! I am only asking you to leave in my office–”
“And what about the ignores? You wanted to avoid me so I better leave! You don’t treat me the way you want! F*ck you! F*ck your promises! Do you know what Aisle thought now? She thinks that you are mad at her because you didn’t even talk to her the same way before. I would accept the anger you throw on me but not my child, Logan. Not.” I turned my back on him and stepped outside my room but he still follow me and stop me once again. However, my decision is final it wouldn’t change.
“I will leave and I will bring Aisle with me.”