The Alpha Who Saved Me

Chapter 79

I keep putting off going to see Jasper, and both Gavin and Declan keep telling me that it’s okay if I want to wait until after I have the baby, so I don’t put any more stress on myself. That’s not why I keep putting it off, though. I’m scared to see his face, and I don’t want to admit that to anybody. Every time I get it in my head that today is the day, a spine-chilling feeling creeps in and I can’t shake it. It’s silly, I know he can’t get to me, but I think it’s more of the memories flooding back.

I was strong while taking all the abuse, I didn’t want him to see that he was breaking me. I would go lay down by Tala, m*ntally, every time he used my body. It was the only way I could get passed it and show him that everything he was doing to me wasn’t affecting me like he thought it would. Since leaving that place, I have been able to put it all behind me in order to get through the day. Aside for the intimacy, it’s been working just fine.

If I go and see him, I’m worried that the wall I’ve built around that specific part of my life will all come tumbling down. My wolf thinks I should let it come down because only then can I start to rebuild after I take care of the cause of it all. I just don’t want to seem weak to anybody.

‘I’ll be with you, Quinn. I will always be right here to fight every obstacle that comes our way. We are a team, you and I, and we will always persevere through it all.’ My wolf is wise, but she was asleep through almost all of it. Tala was there the last couple of times that he used me, so she knows how I handled it at the time.

She would cuddle me when I laid by her those few times, and I wish she could have done it through it all.

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‘I’m scared, Tala.’

‘I know…’

‘What if all the memories come flooding back?’

‘Then I will be with you and will relive all of it alongside you. We are becoming stronger day by day, and so is our pup.

‘The guys think I should wait. What do you think I should do?’

‘I think the sooner, the better. You don’t need to shift in order to get your revenge. Besides, revenge will be sweeter if you do it all on your own. I will be there, of course, and will lend a paw or two if need be. Your hands can still shift to my claws without injuring our pup. A nice paw through the chest cavity may be in order by the end, or you can just let the f*cker bleed out.’

‘Wow, Tala, I never knew you could be so sinister.’ I gasp playfully.

‘I can be whatever I need to be in order to protect those that I love. I will gnaw on his intestines, let his wolf heal him just enough for me to be able to do it all over again. I will commit s*domy on the b*stard if the thought of being anywhere near his a*s didn’t make me want to vomit all over the place.’

‘What the f*ck, Tala?’

‘What? How else do you torture a f*cker like him?’

‘I was thinking more along the line of making him drink wolfbane, and then let him bleed out slowly.’

“Eh, that works too, I guess.’

‘Don’t act so disappointed. I’m sorry if I wasn’t brought up learning how to torture and s*domize others.’ I scoff.

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‘Oh, and I was? I was just thinking an eye for an eye.’ My wolf

states.

Sighing, I smile, ‘I understand, Tala, and maybe my thought

process will change once I see him again, but for now, I just want to be better than him.’

‘Ugh, have I ever told you that I hate it when you’re right?’ She swishes her tail and turns her head to snub me.

I chuckle, ‘How about I talk to Gavin when he gets back, and maybe he will have some suggestions. Then, maybe I can put on my big girl panties and go over to Storm River.’

‘Going commando is so much easier.’ Tala snickers. Upstodatee from Novel(D)ra/m/a.O(r)g

‘You would think that; you p*rv!’

Gavin comes flying down the road and spits dust as he stops in front of the pack house. I’m sitting out on the front porch with Summer as she teaches me to crochet but my attention is turned towards the man getting out of his vehicle.

“Uh oh, I don’t think it went well with his dad.” I state.

“I think I will go put this stuff away and I will see you at supper time.” Summer informs me as she tries to get away before the pi*sed off Alpha heir gets to the top of the steps.

“Good idea,” I stand up and wobble towards the steps.

Gavin’s angry expression changes to one of concern, “You don’t have to get up, babe. I’ll come to you.”

I wave him off, “I’ve been sitting in that chair too long anyway. How

about we go upstairs to my office, and we can discuss whatever it is that has you looking like you’re going to kill someone.”

He nods, and then automatically picks me up bridal-style to carry me up to my office. He refuses to let me walk up or down the stairs on my own, in case I slip and fall. I would fight him in the beginning, but it was no use, so I just finally gave up. I know he enjoys doing things for me, but as an Alpha, I feel as though I’m looking week in front of my pack, even though I know that isn’t the

case.

Once we get to my office, he goes straight to the couch and sits down, keeping me cradled in his arms. Nuzzling my neck, I lean into him and wait for him to begin. Gavin is so loving and loves to cuddle, which is a good thing because it’s all we ever do at night. I’ m in my own thoughts about my intimacy issue when his voice draws me back.

“My father isn’t giving me the title.” He simply states.

“What’s the time frame this time?” I ask irritated by Daniel’s lack of respect for his own son.

“I don’t think he plans to hand it down to me at all, Quinn.”

“What are you talking about? He can’t do that!”

He chuckles but it’s an empty one, “He thinks he can do anything. He’s Alpha f*cking Daniel Davis of the Blue River pack.”

“No, Gavin, you are Alpha of the Blue River pack, and I think it’s time you take what is rightfully yours. We will knock your father off his pedestal, Gavin. There is no doubt about that. Until then,” I smile seductively and then straddle his lap, hoping to take his mind off his a*shole of a father, “You can be my Alpha all you want.”

My distraction from his sour mood works as he asks with a lustful,

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voice, “Oh really? And what will your title be?”

“I will be your Luna, who you will take to bed every night to practice breeding more heirs with.” I’m hoping the more I talk about having sex, eventually my brain will just allow me to do it.

“Mm, that sounds like something to think about. What if I be your Alpha during the day, and you be my Alpha at night, behind closed doors, where you can demand that I bow to you?”

“Oh! Now that sounds really interesting!” I grin and then bite my lip. I stare down at his mouth, and I feel a tiny spark ignite in my core. I crash my lips against his and take what I want. He does nothing but match the passion that I’m giving him.

He waits for me to make the next move, never once trying to take over, and it just turns me on even more. Giving me the power to choose what and when I do it, him submitting to me in the bedroom, may just do what I need it to do. I grip his hair and yank his head back as I stare into his gorgeous green eyes. I can see the love he has for me swimming in their depths, and I know in this instant that I’m about to f*ck his brains out.

That’s it for today peeps. I will see you back tomorrow for the next few chapters! =)