The story of Alpha

Aurora:

“Angelina,” Dimitri said, and 1 shook my head in question at the choice of name. The name was a surprise to me, especially when I didn’t expect him to be caring about me in this situation. “It means angel, and I think that our little heir would be having her mother’s angelic side. I believe that giving her the name would only enhance the feature. As you may know, it is often said that we get a lot from our names.”

“You do know that you don’t have to pretend that..?”

“I am not pretending. Aurora.” He said, stopping me. He got up from the edge of the bed where he was sitting, and walking to her crib, I watched as he carried her in his arms. He slowly brought her to me and my stomach churned when I saw him extending her to me, wanting me to hold her. It reminded me of the first time I held her when I woke up.

I looked at her as she opened her eyes to look at her father and I couldn’t help but find myself smiling at her angelic expression. “You know, when I woke up, I was scared that I had lost her. I didn’t even remember what happened, but when I looked around me and when I remembered that I was giving birth..”

“Everyone was afraid of losing you that night” He said, stopping me. “You wouldn’t believe it if I described how much we were scared of it. But even the pack doctors found and saw it as a miracle that you survived. You lost a lot of blood, and that is something that pained me more than anything.”

I put my hand on my stomach for a second before looking up at the man, my eyes meeting his for a second and he smiled. “I realized that night that you meant more to me than I already knew or realized. And though, I have to admit, I was somewhat ashamed of myself that it took such an occasion to realize it.”

“I am going to be very honest with you, Dimitri; I never expect you to look at me any differently. With the way that we started, and with the fact that you had Charlotte when the two of us were supposed to be mates. The way that you refused me, and the fact that I knew that you wanted nothing to do with me in the first place, I couldn’t help but find myself doubting that we would ever be a couple in the first place.” I said, choosing to be honest.

I knew that this was a bold move from my side, and I knew for fact that the man could have shut me off; but I wanted him to know what I felt toward him, and I wanted him to know that I was happy with what we were now.

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“I still don’t know what to think of this, but I am going to stay thankful for it as not to lose it. I don’t know what I would be doing if it turned out to be a lie, but I am hoping that it is not a moment of excitement alone.” I said, keeping my eyes on his. I had to admit, it being a moment of excitement was something that scared the life out of me.

I knew that he could just be happy for the fact that he now had an heir. It was something that ensured his strength between the packs. And considering the fact that all the elders were going to be witnessing it, I knew for fact that it was something that every other Alpha would want to take his place for. The man’s position as Alpha was to grow stronger now that he did his “duty, and that was something that we both knew very well.

“Had it been a moment of excitement, neither you or Natalin would have seen me in this room for more than a minute after

you

woke up” Dimitri said, looking me in the eye. “I am not the type to stay in a woman’s room and when rejected. I know to

back

away. and 1 think that you of all people should know my resentment and when it happens.”

“And that is why I am worried that it might happen again. Don’t get me wrong, but I have all the reasons to be both worried and scared, especially after everything that the two of us dealt with, Alpha.” I said, and he smiled. I looked down at my daughter for a second, smiling softly when I saw her beautiful blue eyes staring up at me.

“We can always take things slow, I doubt that we have anything that would stop us from doing so if we want to. All we have to do is g

is give a right response to what we believe is right or wrong.” He said, and I smiled. “We can see how it goes and how we can build our relationship from there.”

“What if it backfires 1 understand that both options are there and we can’t really predict, but I hope that you would understand my point as well.” I said, and he nodded, smiling at me.

“We are going to handle this relationship, or mating if I am to be exact with my choice of words, the way that we should have in the first place. I know that we didn’t start in the smoothest of ways, and I hate to say that I did not want to find

myself dealing with such a situation.” He said, looking away from me. “And having our pasts, well, mine to be exact. I hate to admit that yours is far cleaner than will ever…”Please check at N/ôvel(D)rama.Org.

“That is the benefit of being a man.“I said, stopping him. “Had I been born a man, I would have been able to bed whoever 1 wanted, and no one would have cared. They would have claimed that I was feeding off my hunger until I either fond a mate or had one chosen for me. In my case, that is different, especially as a woman who despite being a bastard had more responsibilities to take care of for the family that took me in with no doubt or hesitation.”

He stayed quite for a few seconds, and I raised an eyebrow, knowing that he had something that he wanted to tell me. He opened his mouth for a second before closing it again, and I nodded, silently asking him to voice out whatever it was that he had in mind.

“Did it ever occur to you to search of where you came from?” He asked, and I smiled, looking down at my daughter. It pained to know that I was never going to be able to explain to her why I was who I was, and why I didn’t know where I came from.

“I did, but somethings are often best left unsolved, I guess. My parents often tried keeping me busy from that search, and I, being the good girl, often knew not to ask them. Otherwise, I was going to end up going through more hell than I could handle, and believe me, only a fool would go against people like my parents.” I said, remembering the time that I had asked about who I was. I was tired of the pack members calling me or looking at me as a bastard. And when my father found out, he not only killed and punished those who took part in humiliating me, but he and mother made sure that I never dared open the topic again. I knew not to ask anymore, and they got their peace of mind of my random searches whenever I got annoyed as a teenager.

“But aren’t you the least bit curious?” He asked, and I scoffed, shaking my head. The fact that he was asking told that this was more than just ME.

“Are you?” I asked, shaking my head and he looked down at his lap for a second, avoiding my eyes. “I used to be, but I was quick to learn not to be.”

The man studied my expression for a second, and I could tell that he had more questions to ask, but this was not a topic that I wanted to address anymore. “Now, can we please close the topic? It is getting on my nerves, and I really do not want to keep talking about a past that I know that I would never be able to change. Not that I want to anyway..”